Why is it that even the most realistic if my crushes can always turn out to be un-realistic?
Reason 1 : Let’s go back to my fourth grade classroom. So there’s “this boy” in my class that I had a huge crush on, unfortunately for me, so did every other girl in school. However the factor that made this crush un-realistic was that “this boy” was one of my best friends and he always said “I’m never going to date a close friend because, it would be weird.” Now the fact that we were in fourth grade and he was saying this, made me like him even more. Even now, I’m not sure why. But it did.
Reason 2: Fith grade. Once again I fall for one of my best friends. Unlike the previous, he would “date” a close friend. But really, what counts as “dating” when you are in the fith grade? Still, there was just something about him. After school ended that year, I moved three hours away and never told him how I felt.
Reason 3: Sixth grade. I was the “new girl” and didn’t know anyone. The cute boy in my class, had no idea that I liked him, or that I was even alive for that matter.
Reason 4: Seventh grade. I had given up on my crush from the year before. There wasn’t a boy that I was really head-over-heels with. Unlike my best friend who, thinking back, had seven or eight boys on her mind. But there was one boy who asked me out. Now I was just tired of being single, so I said yes. But that only lasted a week. My choice. Even in middle school he was controlling. He had to know where I was every minute of the day. After we broke up, I fell for a friend who made it clear that we were “just friends”. Once again, I was crushed.
Reason 5: Now this brings us to this past year. Eigth grade. There’s a boy who was in my class last year, but I’m almost positive, has forgotten about me completely. Last year he was the annoying, smart, slightly-popular kid in the class. But this year well, he was still those things, but it doesn’t bother me anymore. Still, I can’t bring myself to tell him how I feel. Therefore, if he doesn’t know how I feel, in my oppinion, the crush becomes un-realistic.
Sure there have been other crushes that lasted no longer than a day or two. I mean, I am a teenage girl, but these are the ones that have stuck with me, the ones that I can’t seem to forget, no matter how hard I try.
