I came out in 2005. I had just turned 19. Having come out, I began to contemplate things from the previous 19 years that might have been “signs” of my sexuality. As I racked my brain, I began to try to think of guys from my childhood who I found attractive. A couple of years later I had a conversation with one of my friends who revealed that her first same sex crush was Natalie Portman in Mars Attacks! It was then I realized that my first gay crush was in fact an onscreen one as well: Devon Sawa as Casper the Friendly Ghost in the 1995 movie of the same name. Who knows why I was attracted to him? Doubtless there were other cute adolescent boys that I could have been crushing on in movies, but I chose him…
current topic for submission
"Most inexplicable fling (or crush)"
and coming soon...
our next topic:
"regrets"
big or small-- i used to be convinced i didn't have any regrets, but when i really thought about it, i realized that i do-- and they're not what i ever would have imagined-- what're yours? start thinking about it, so you can send me your story! i'll post the deadline soon -- xo m.m.